When I started writing Bait,
a Ted Dekker-style serial killer novel that is in the COMING SOON pile, I was
conscious I didn’t want any lengthy descriptions of what the bad guy was doing.
Because, well…eeewww.
In doing that, though, it
turned out to be psychologically scary, because instead of being given the
information, you’re wondering about it. And sometimes that’s waaaaay worse.
Yikes.
How is it that our brains can
blow stuff that might not be that bad totally out of proportion? My brain doesn’t
obey me, and only think about fun things that are nice and don’t make me want
to poop my pants—hello, serial killer
novel. (Note: I’ll probably not do that again for a long time.) I’d much
rather write about unicorns and bubbles, but there’s not much of that in
suspense. *sigh*
Left to our own devices, our
minds will chew us up and spit us out.
In Genesis, God referred to
the people living at that time (before the flood) and their minds, specifically.
It says this: “Then the Lord saw that the wickedness of man was great
in the earth, and that every intent of the thoughts of his heart was only
evil continually.” (Genesis 6:5) Not that their
thoughts were evil, but that every intent
behind their thoughts wasn’t a bit evil, but only evil continually. Ouch. Some of that isn’t even conscious.
And that’s the key, I think.
Fear is something we all face. But it’s also ALL IN YOUR HEAD.
It holds us back, paralyzes
us, makes us doubt even when there’s a clear call. Fear will twist us up until
that one (perfectly reasonable, but don’t tell me that) rejection letter sends
us straight to the sweats, the Kleenex, and the Reece’s cups. Hello, ten
pounds.
So how do we combat it, if we
can hardly control it? Wrestle the fear to the ground in a death-match style
battle? Challenge it to an arm wrestle to see who’s boss?
Romans 12 says we need to be “transformed
by the renewing of our MIND”, and 2 Corinthians 10 says to “take every thought
captive”. That’s how you fight the fear—you meet it on its playground (in your
head) with all your friends—you know, truth, hope, peace, love, the Holy Spirit.
God, He knows that your brain
is like this. He knows how depression and anxiety work. He knows what it feels
like to get rejected—meditate on that one and tell me He doesn’t sympathize
with our weaknesses. He knows you’ll fall victim to your bad guy—your own head.
But He also gave you (and me,
Amen) the tools to fight it. 1 John 4:18 says PERFECT LOVE casts out fear. It
might as well read, “God casts out fear”, because He’s the only place you’re
going to find that perfect love. And because “fear involves torment”—boy, does
it ever. And “he who fears has not been made perfect in love” (no kidding). So,
there’s some work to do.
We all knew that.
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